Light It Up

  I've said it before, I'll say it again. I wish music was visible as waves of light...or just visibles waves in general but I suppose to be visible they must be made of light. How fantastic would it be to litterally be able to see music. to be surrounded by it. to be able to dance around in it's colors. Music is so emotionally moving anyway, can you imagine how much more spectacular it would be if you could see it in colorful waves of brilliance?! It is a privilege confined to my daydreams, but what a dream it is!

The View Behind the Closed Door

  Have you ever made a plan in your mind of how you thought a situation or maybe even just life in general would go? Confession. I do. I get very focused on my plan and variations aren't always readily accepted. Not that I can't, I just am slow about switching gears. I recently had a situation that warranted the phrase "That door has closed" but it was particularly difficult to accept it. As I was fighting with God and myself about it, I got this picture in my head of myself standing with my nose an inch from the door screaming for it to be open. Have you ever stood that close to a closed door? Your view is....door. What was on the other side of the door was a great view, but it wasn't mine. All I could see was a closed door. I might be in a room full of other open doors, with even better views but I can't see those. I was too busy looking at the door, the closed door.

Flo 3.0

 There is always a better version of yourself available to you. That's kind of my motto lately. Over the winter I have worked to reinvent myself. Not "change" so much as "improve". There is a difference. I think that sometimes we limit our own growth and evolution because we scream "it's just the way that I am" or "accept me for me". Don't get me wrong you are you and you should not change that; however I think we are too quick to define ourselves by our short comings, and instead of confronting them we hide behind excuses.  Just because you are impatient by nature does not mean that this is not an area that you are not capable of growing in.

  I want to be the best version of myself that I can be. There are some things about me that I can't change (and to be honest these are the ones that we have the hardest time accepting and the ones, that usually we are most preoccupied with) and things that I can. I have the face that I have. Fact. And unless I want to look like Micheal Jackson or Joan Rivers I need to accept that as something that I can't change and roll with it. I can't change my body but I can work out and eat healthy to make sure that my body is the best version that it can be. I don't bake. That is until one day when I decided that I was going to learn.

You can upgrade yourself by finding things in your self that you want to change. It's not immediate. It's not overnight. It does, however, make a difference.