Inside the Upside

*Sigh*  Life. Sometimes... most of the time, rather, I don't understand. My autumn has been a puzzle that is completed save the piece that no one can find, almost perfect. But that one piece draws all the attention. I can't see or enjoy the all the pieces that I do have together because I am obsessed with the one that I'm missing.

I struggle with writing my own story. I forget where I am, perhaps because I forget where I've been. I tend to live an anxious thought of tomorrow rather than in the daylight of today. I waste entire days worrying about tomorrow, next week,next year, never. (How do you even worry about never?) I have this insatiable need to understand everything. To some degree it is a good thing because inquisitiveness fuels creativity and knowledge but some things don't need to be understood and sometimes can't be understood. I find myself so focused on understanding my proverbial tomorrow that I waste all of yesterday's tomorrows. There is such beauty in living in the moment, in today, that I just seem to miss.

 Take a moment. Look for the piece later. Enjoy the almost completed puzzle.